I've been especially lucky in the last month, and I'm waiting on baited breath for that luck to run out. Of course, I don't want my luck to run out and am extremely grateful for all that's happened, but the realist in me is fully aware of the inevitable. These sorts of things come in cycles, and I'm in an upswing, but everything could easily come crashing down without any warning at any time.
As I have neglected writing last month due to circumstances beyond my control at the time, I will make up for this absence this month with two journals. My previous one was an attempt to bring myself a happiness that eluded me in the prior months, a happiness that only really could come about with my freedom. I was giving all of myself with no returns to the point where I was feeling physically ill again. This last month, I returned to being my own, fully, and from this freedom sprang projects and trips that would otherwise be impossible.
Freedom was not without pain, of course, but now that I have more time to focus on other things, the only thing I need is the motivation, which is not always readily available.
With the ever-improving weather, I've gotten a few chances to go on hikes. Time wandering around alone with no wont for time itself has done wonders for my mood. The trees are in bloom now. I'm spending more time outdoors in general thanks to work, but being bound by duty makes appreciating the splendor around oneself difficult. One's focus is elsewhere. While hiking, the only focus is on one's footing, allowing for a looser grip on focus and a much more relaxed overall tone. When we bog ourselves down so heavily with how to live, we forget to live. Hiking helps shift the focus off of trying to live so that life can happen. There is no wrong way to live, but my experience has been that relinquishing control sometimes makes life less stressful.
In terms of making life less stressful, I also got a new phone last month. My Windows Phone still works great as a camera and MP3 player, which ultimately saves storage on the new phone, but the new phone has resources I need for my position at work and Pokemon Go. In less than a month, I'm level 19, and since I'm playing for fun, I chose Instinct. It's not that I don't need help, but I'm not playing to be competitive, either, so in this regard, going alone better suits my purposes. Since I started in Gen 2, I was somewhat surprised that the Kanto starters are still the only ones offered at the onset. Despite this, I caught a Chikorita and hatched both a Squirtle and a Charmander. My initial Charmander is weaker, but she'll still be the first of the two to become a Charmeleon. Once that happens, I'll focus my attention on my Magikarp. That sucker's gonna have a LONG way to go, but I'm excited for the eventual results.
A project and a wish helped me reconnect with an old friend over the weekend. I spent the entire week prior to this year's Castle Point Anime Con trying to round up friends to go with me and constructing a Dominator from Psycho-Pass for my Kagari Shuusei cosplay. I also found a pair of passable socks, but the Dominator is far more interesting. The project totaled 30 hours spread across 6 days and was mostly made of cardboard and paper mache. My dad helped contribute a heavy-duty spring for the functional trigger, but the gun was ultimately made to be "broken". Because (spoilerific) reasons
. Waiting for stuff to dry was the most stressful part. It's not perfect, but it's mine, and I put a lot of heart into it, so being able to show it off made CPAC all the sweeter.
A friend of mine from high school ended up going with me for his first con ever, making this the second time in two years I used CPAC to introduce friends to conventions. I've always liked Castle Point, but this year upped the ante. The panels had some expected technical difficulties and things got switched around at the last second, but panels were otherwise well run and entertaining. I had a couple photos taken of me, and was the only Psycho-Pass cosplayer in attendance that I'm aware of, to the delight of one of my photographers. A very cool Howl and Sophie I took a picture of commented on my character's situation, which made me smile. My friend was also quite enamored with the Dominator and in the goings-on of the convention overall, not wanting to sit still for a minute, which was beneficial to me as well because it always kept us doing something.
Unbeknownst to me, SHiNNOSUKE of ROOKiEZ is PUNK'D was at the concert with a likewise wicked talented guitarist going by Rockwell, and they held a concert at the end of the con! I got to introduce my friend to some ROOKiEZ that way, too. I probably would have known they would be there if I did my research before going to CPAC this year, but the excitement of learning this information off-hand at the Dealers' Room fed into the hype and made the experience unbelievably enjoyable. I got to see some excited con-goers attend their first concert and fan HARD, an experience I know firsthand, but was somehow unable to muster. However, this level-headedness allowed me to say what I wanted to say with a clear mind while SHiNNOSUKE signed the CD I purchased earlier that day. I thanked him for everything, including the pleasant surprise of the concert. I haven't listened to the CD quite yet because I wanted to do so while adding music to my Windows Phone, which I had planned to do today.
"The best laid plans o' mice an' men gang aft agley", though, as Robert Burns so memorably denotes in "To a Mouse
". My best laid plans today were to make some phone calls, drop off a phone at work, meet up with my mother, and do some online stuff. I'm getting to the online stuff now, but the reality of the day led me to drop the phone off as planned, but then take an expedition to the mall for books, music, and phone cases, and then fulfill a specific craving for Beef Negimaki, which wound up with me taking home some Ootoro and doing a photoshoot with my Izaya figma. Following this, I plan to post convention photos on my Facebook
and figma photos on Tumblr (Standing Ovation at Sunset
, Ootoro Photoshoot
Speak at ya in a few weeks!